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I saw a sky today and what a beautiful sky! An endless dimension of possibilities…Every cloud was in its proper place. Well-aligned with its purpose. However, its purpose was not very clear and that is what got me to gaze deeper. As I wanted to know, for it presented a certain divinity in beauty that my eyes could not ignore. As my eyes stared as they starred and soon began to tear. Maybe I was too happy. Maybe I was too sad that the clouds were moving away against my thoughts. My thoughts were stable, constant in their belief. That the view was of an endless charm. A onetime in life to see. I saw it as I believed it. I believed in the finite and saw the infinite. After this long time, how could it be?

It is true that one of these moments makes a person question their understanding. That maybe, only maybe, their wish was granted from day one, but spent the entire lifetime discovering what they already know. Considering the option – which is close to real as it makes sense-, it explains the sense of familiarity a person feels when they look at something around them especially celestial elements. I have always felt a sense of belonging every time I gazed at the sky. Most especially at night. As it became too clear, to notice and to testify. I did notice but never had the urge to testify. Never imagined seeing it again, that celestial light. For I have lost it one day. I adored it more than loved it. I admired it more than liked it. Everything made sense although had a minimal percentage of logic. However, it made sense. As it manifested in beauty generating an endless ecstasy, of hope, dreams, and most certainly love. I loved it before knowing what love feels like. Irresistible. It run into me and out of me as I watched its glow enchanting my eyes, which were always tearing. As my sense of suffocation amplified. Thought I was the only one in the room, suffocating, but I was not.

It was indeed a meaningful meeting that makes a person curse the roads he had been taking as they were unstable and never led, to this. This thing that makes sense. I remember you made sense of my entire being. As I manifested through you. Saw my truth within you. Had a terrible attempt trying to live without you. You were the delicacy I needed to conceal my wounds. I have been bleeding my entire past days out on my present days, as it was too traumatic and most importantly, did not lead to you…

I remember the first day we met. On a hot summer day. My favorite day. Although I do not like summer or heat. But you embodied my saying; you were the soft breeze on a summer day. I liked you since day one… Day one, was indeed my birthday. I saw my birth in you and never out of you as it was my inevitable death… I am difficultly trying to remember, as I happen to have this habit of ignoring events that do not make sense. At first you most certainly did not make sense. As it was senseless. An entire scene of blurriness. Did not want to participate, knowing it was a good show. All of its participants were low quality members. I thought I will be too clear for you to see, so I never participated. However, you admired it and I was left alone from day one. As you were nowhere to be found. I looked around to find only my shadow following me to every corner of my lonely streets and sleepless nights…

When the morning came I decided, that this time I will try and reach the level of your expectations. I will walk their walk, pronounce their speech and believe every word. As I never believed that finite matters could hold infinity. But you were, one of the infinites. Saw you in bright lights with rosy eyes. As you appeared something of a true value. To guard and to keep. It was unique and most certainly, rare. Felt like I found the last jewelry in the world. Loved it too profoundly. Swore to protect it with my life. However protective I was, your indifference hit its maxim as you ignored my words and avoided my gaze.

Was I a fool to love you? The irony though. My entire entourage raised their red flags when they saw you, except for me…

Was I a fool to love you? As my lost balance the day I saw you on the shore and wished to God I had never sailed. I have been sailing, for years now. Never lost direction as I always followed my logical interpretation. In search of the sense hidden in things and places.

I will not mention my preschool days because little control I had over my being. Everything was already predetermined to be in its right place. As my mother entirely made me. The one who gave me breathe before life. She was my life that I was living for. It is true that my heart only knew her as my pride. Imagined her my forever guide. My everlasting forever… No one else but my mother filled me body and soul with light that not only shone the brightest but also, spread. Reaching everyone and everywhere. As it eventually reached, you. You disliked my brightness. Forgive me…it was the only thing I have ever k

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