Solipsism

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”i see trees of green ”

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”green trees there too ”

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”i see the trees ”

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”and they are green ”

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”and i think to myself ”

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”i am lost in these woods ”

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well, i thought this would be more eventful. but nope, just been walking for who knows how long.

”i should stop looking passively and look actively. ” i mumble, now in a full stop.

i lift my nose and start sniffing around. the trees have a certain smell, berries too (especially that poisonous clackers) and ants have some pheromones.

after a bit i also fucus my ears into the surrounding and start humming.

i open my eyes once i finished, first i made a mental map with sense of smell, only going 100m sadly.

but i also made one through sound and hearing.

the second one is a quite a bit less accurate than the first, but if i fuse these two and the one Ive been making since i woke up (not sure how to put the beach, so Ill make it transparent within my mental map).

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—— 〔skill〕 – gained – (smell) ——

—— 〔skill〕 – gained – (hearing) ——

—— 〔skill〕 – gained – (mental map) ——

—— 〔skill〕 – gained – (echo location) ——

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Ill check those later, bow i have something much more important.

i have a near perfect map by where i already been, Ill name it map tier 1.

next is my sense of smell map, it gives me rough idea of what is around in a 100 meter radius of where i mapped it, Ill call this map tier 2.

lastly is the hearing, i can make a map for 2 kilometre radius, in this i cant tell the details, but i can get a rough idea of the environment around, Ill call it tier 3, of course.

in my tier 2 map, i can see (smell) some different types of berries, some insects, and animals. i think there may be a group of bunny to my left.

anyways, the important one, tier 3, in it see plenty of trees (a bit wiggly from the distance) weird objects on the ground (animals, i presume), more trees, and a wall.

that wall bounced all that i sent at it back towards me, so im guessing its a wall.

if so, that means a few things.

1 -> its civilization (oh yay… (sarcasm)).

2 -> its a cliff. if so, the there may be a cave, a much better shelter than that grove.

”either way, i wanna go there. ” i say as i start running.

”its 1.7 kilometres out, so Ill have to run quite a bit. ” i mumble.

”welp, skill time. ”

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〔skill〕 – (smell) —>

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your sense of smell.

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〔skill〕 – (hearing) —>

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your sense of hearing.

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”seriously, no special game like bonuses? shame. ” i say, shaking my head.

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〔skill〕 – (mental map) —>

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through the perception of your surroundings, you can map the world around you based on your perception.

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”so i can make a map as long as i know? i already could do that, nothing new. ”

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〔skill〕 – (echo location) —>

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by sending sound waves and tracing them down, you can scan nearby areas.

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”just showing me what i already know? ” i say as i start seeing something in the distance.

getting closer, i find it exactly what i was expecting, a BIG, ol cliff.

the tree lines stop a bit before the cliff, making it if you weren paying attention, the cliff wall would be a sudden change.

as i got closer to the cliff, the trees stopped around 25 meters (at the closest) and 60 meters (at the average farthest) away from the cliff ,roughly.

”roughly a kilometre tall. ” i say, estimating it based on the trees i estimated an… undefined time ago.

the cliff wall is rather rocky, to my left and right are more or less the same, going for longer than what my eyes can make out.

”i should go a direction, since i need to look for a cave… right it tis! ” i say pointing at the where to go direction.

i now start the process known as ”running ” to the right of where i originally was

as Im running, i start to think about what happend last night at the… ”incident ”.

the berries. i start thinking about their properties, thouse properties include poison, terrible taste, and acid…

the first, poison, i can see them being poisonous, i did consider the idea. and the second, shit taste, i should have stopped after the first to see if they where poisoned, but even then i should have stopped at the taste.

”now, the third… ”

acid, i know that there are plenty of acid creatures, few insects throw acid (mostly from their buttocks), some animals also spit acid, I think…?

even then, i didn consider acid plants, atleast nothing that major. since i saw ants eat it, shouldn they be, ya know, dead.

maybe they developed a resistance to it, like this one.

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〔skill〕 – (poison resistance) –

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”moving on to the second major-ish point, this. ” i say.

im talking about the grimoire, of course.

”but thatll wait. ” why? because i hear something in the distance, its like…

*distant swoshing*

as i hear that, i sped up my pace.

after a bit i find something nice, a water fall.

the water fall starts at the top of the cliff and goes down to a river leading away from the cliff.

”water, thats that covered. ” says me.

i should be careful when drinking, since it might be contaminated.

”but i didn find what i was looking for… ” i say as my eyes trail off to behind the water fall.

noticing something off with the water fall, i take a rocky road that leads behind the the falling water. as i take the back road, i find… a cave?

yup, a cave the entrance is 4 metres tall and 3 metres at its widest, in an pyramid shape.

entering the cave i find its insides bigger than the entrance (that makes it sound weird).

slowly sitting on the side, i find the few hours of running catching up with me.

after half an hour of resting i stand up, not because im rested, but because itll be night time soon.

i leave my small cave and go past the water fall in looking for food.

after looking for a little bit, i find berries, not the same as the last one, so maybe it isn poisoned.

with the night creaping in fast, i take a bunch and run for the cliff.

when i reach the cave, i drop the berries onto the side and relax… until my stomach said otherwise.

*growling*

with my stomachs wrath just around the corner, i reach for a berry and gulp it down, just one.

nothing… i find nothing, i… expected it to be poi… se… n…

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”ugh ” i grumble, opening my eyes and sitting up.

the ** happened last night? i ate one and… then what?

with the berries to my side, and the nightlight of the world on the outside of the cave, i open my grimoire.

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「name」 – Jeneshisu

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「race」 – fox-kin

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〔stats〕

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「strength」 – 15

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「endurence 」 – 15

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「constitution」- 22

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「agility 」- 13

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「dexterity 」- 34

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「intelligence 」- 982

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「will」-

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〔skills〕

(adaptability) (intuition lv- 1) (instinct lv- 1) (acid resistance lv- 3) (poison resistance lv- 2) (pain resistance lv- 19) (cell regeneration lv- 8) (regeneration lv- 5) (poison enzyme lv- 1) (poison body lv- 1) (acid body lv- 2) (smell lv- 1) (hearing lv- 2) (mental map lv- 2) (echo location lv- 4) (fainting resistance lv- 1) (cold resistance lv- 2) (starvation resistance lv- 1) (fatigue resistance lv- 1)

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fainting and starvation resistance? i fainted, but why? was it because of fatig-

*GROWLING*

my stomach grumbled, feeling my face heating up, i get a bit of relieve that im alone.

it doesn take a genius to say im hungry, with night time outside, i dont want to go out when i cant see. and thus leaving the berries to my side as the only way to answer my eternal hunger.

with 19 berries left and my hunger growing, i do the second stupidest thing Ive done (since i woke up beach adrift) and gulp them all down all at once.

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am i having deja vu?

WAIT!!

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (instinct) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (intuition) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (intuition) —-

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not agai…

*thrump*

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*waterfall noises in the background*

”eegh ” i grumble as i wake up.

sitting up (again) i take a look around, and confirm what happend last night. i collapse to the ground.

i put my hands on my face, trying to cover my rather red face. now, you might be wondering why im doing this, is it due to fatigue? no, while i am tired, its not because of that. then what? hunger? thirst? nope, its because my own, **ing, stupidity.

this is the second **ing time! youd think the pain of the first would stop me, but you are truly a fool for underestimating my pure, unfiltered, idiotcy. i deserve an award for universes biggest idiot.

”s~~i~~g~~h. ” i drag the sigh to match my peanut size brain.

fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me.

not wanting to think of my single digit IQ score, i open what i see as my only friend in this cruel, cruel world.

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「name」 – Jeneshisu

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「race」 – fox-kin

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〔stats〕

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「strength」 – 15 [weakend]

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「endurence 」 – 15 [weakened]

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「constitution」- 22 [weakened]

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「agility 」- 13

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「dexterity 」- 34

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「intelligence 」- 982

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「will」-

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〔skills〕

(adaptability) (intuition lv- 3) (instinct lv- 2) (acid resistance lv- 3) (poison resistance lv- 2) (pain resistance lv- 19) (cell regeneration lv- 8) (regeneration lv- 5) (poison enzyme lv- 2) (poison body lv- 2) (acid body lv- 2) (smell lv- 1) (hearing lv- 2) (mental map lv- 2) (echo location lv- 4) (fainting resistance lv- 6) (cold resistance lv- 7) (starvation resistance lv- 5) (fatigue resistance lv- 3) (dehydration resistance lv- 11)

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i… stood up and went out. i knew i was thirsty, yes, but for it to reach lv 11… just how long was i out for?

heading out i find the dawn of this world, the binary stars atop the path created by the river, the river swerving a bit to the right, a bit to the left in the vast distance this river crosses, and with trees on both sides of the river, giving the feeling of confinement within an endless land.

with such magnificent scenery infront of me, i have but only one thought trapped within my mind.

how long has it been since i last saw the sun…

getting a bit further from the waterfalls splashing, i kneel down and start drinking water. when the cold water touched my parched throat, it tasted like the best thing ever. nothing i had eaten could compare to water. then again, the competition was between water, poison berries and whatever THAT that i used to eat…

so water is an automatic win, obviously.

while i drink, i stare at the water.

and the water stares back.

not really, its just my reflection. i see a young girl, white haired tipped in purple indigo, having fox ears on top of her head tipped in the same colour as her hair tips. opening her mouth shows teeth that resembles both human, and fox, but not quite either. closer to fox than human. with her crimson eyes staring at her hand placed on her cheek. feeling her, despite being dehydrated and starved, still smooth skin, she digs her nails into her skin and drags it down, leaving a trail of red burnt claw marks on her face. she stands up and leaves.

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i did the sleeping, i did the drinking, now is the eating part left to do.

i dont want to eat anything poisonous again, so Ill try and look for some meat… meeaat.

while i was mentally drooling over some nice and tasty slice of delicious meat, i smelled something in the distance, guessing by smell, its leaving a trail of its smell as it walks, im guessing its an animal based on that.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (smell) —-

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i quickly hide behind a tree since its approaching me slowly, very slowly. after getting closer to me it stops, while still hiding i peek out a bit, and what i found shocked me.

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—- 〔skill〕 – gained – (stealth) —-

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no, not really, it was just a bunny. nothing special, aside being coloured green, but who cares.

the rabbit was to eat from the ground as i was watching it, quite unhygienic if i say so myself, then again, rabbits may have the five second rule extended to a five year rule.

the rabbit continues eating without a care to the world, not minding whatever i think, how rude.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (stealth) —-

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i place my hand on the tree and at the place my hand touched started to freeze. the ice extended down the tree slowly reaching the ground, once it reached the ground its way towards the rabbit.

after a few minutes of of the ice moving, it finally reached the rabbit. the rabbit, seemingly unaware of the cold demise creaping on it. the ice slowly freezes its hind legs. the rabbit, still eating away at the grass.

thats when when the rabbit lifts its head up and dashes out, possibly aware of the cold. thats when Jeneshisu jumps out and runs towards the rabbit. the rabbit, normally rather agile, felt slow, numb, and cold. Jeneshisu jumps towards bunny catching it. holding the rabbit in her arms, she whispers.

”thats enough, no more. ” Jeneshisu says in a calm tone.

as the rabbit struggling in her hand, the rabbit movement slowly slowing down, until the rabbit finally stopped moving. the rabbit laid numb on her hands.

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well, that was that. i caught the rabbit, that part was worked out. i unfroze the the rabbit in all parts except its legs, (just incase it runs). but that part was unnecessary, since the rabbit had died apon my hands.

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—— 〔skill〕 – gained – (assassination) ——

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hmm, i gained quite alot of skills recently. while im making my way back to the waterfall, rabbit in hand, lets check what new skills i got.

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〔skill〕 – (fainting resistance) —>

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your resistance to fainting.

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thats… literally its name.

what about the cold one?

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〔skill〕 – (cold resistance) —>

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your ability to withstand the cold decrease in temperature.

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atleast it isn just rearranged differently.

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〔skill〕 – (starvation resistance) —>

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your ability to last longer without food.

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〔skill〕 – (fatigue resistance) —>

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your ability for your stamina to last longer.

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〔skill〕 – (dehydration resistance) —>

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your ability to last longer without water.

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these three sound similar. although i wonder how long can i last without anything? if i knew how long i slept for, i might figure that out.

now, almost all the skills i got before where resistances, now i got some actual normal skills. well, normal is subjective, very subjective.

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〔skill〕 – (stealth) —>

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your ability to hide from observers.

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umm, i guess?

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〔skill〕 – (assassination) —>

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your ability to kill the target secretly without the targets knowledge.

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see? what did i say about being subjective? very, very subjective at that.

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〔skill〕 – (predators instincts) —>

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the natural instincts given to a predator. the instincts to hunt down prey.

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i guess that makes me a predator. well, both foxes and humans are predators.

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〔skill〕 – (Fox frost) —>

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by using ◇●■♧` through ●■□○ you can generate an elemental ice known as ”Fox ice ”.

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what are the encrypted parts? but aside from the encrypted parts, this is accurate, i think…?

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〔skill〕 – (◇●■♧ vessel) —>

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through the injection and over dose of ◇●■♧, your vessel has been adapted to be able to withstand the unnatural excess of ◇●■♧.

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how nice, even more encryption. isn annoying, not at all.

any-cow! i know what one of the encrypted parts are, this one ◇●■♧. i dont know how to explain really, but the best way i can explain it is, its a type of energy.

its a type of energy that i use to make ice (and more), kinda like magic (sadly, magic isnt real). if i stop moving (which i just did) and lift my free hand up infront of me, close my eyes and concentrate for a bit, i start seeing it. (well, perceive is more correct if i take into account the fact my eyes are closed).

the energy is all within my body. from my hand all the way to my toes. in every strand of hair, even eyebrows and eyelashes include.

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—- 〔skill〕 – gained – (◇●■♧ perception) —-

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i put my finger in my mouth and bit it, holding my hand out until my blood spilled. i find the energy in my blood even.

i noticed that i cant see the energy as well as i could when its like this, at least not when compared to my body.

i tried to focus on it as much as i could, while still being aware of my surroundings. i focused on my index finger, and the amount of energy in my blood gets clearer.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (◇●■♧ perception) —-

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after a bit of time standing around, seemingly doing nothing, but infact, i was trying to see as far as i could into the blood that was on my index finger.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (◇●■♧ perception) —-

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”finally. ” i mumbled with a small smile on my face.

i finally managed to see that the blood droplet has an equal or a very close amount of energy to the rest of my body. i swiped the blood on my index with my thumb and found the wound already healed.

now, why did seeing the amount of energy in my blood take so long compared to the rest of my body? i have a theory on why.

i placed my free hand on a nearby tree and concentrate. after a minute or two, i started seeing the energy as i call it.

checking the amount i can see, i can say that i can see roughly three centimeters away from my hand into the tree.

after a bit of this, the distance increased to four centimeters (give or take) and the clarity of the energy increased.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (◇●■♧ perception) —-

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calling it energy all the time is a bit annoying. so, why don i call it… how about anima?

yeah, anima sounds much better. alright, anima it is.

this confirms my theory. the farther the anima is from my body, the harder it is to sense it.

i lifted my hand from the tree and started making my way towards the waterfall. guessing the time… id guess it took roughly one hour. looking towards the rabbit in my hand i felt glad i froze it earlier. although it took an hour (probably more) i think it was worth it, considering i leveled anima perception up to level five.

i got quite a few skills in this small journey. although Ive been getting alot of skills by doing, just about anything.

any-who, i arrived to my destination, the waterfall.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (mental map) —-

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why thank you~

i strode by the rivers side, behind the waterfall, and now in the cave. in my cave i put rabbit down and unfroze it.

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—-〔skill〕 – leveled up – (Fox frost) —-

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i turn one of my fingers into a claw and cut the rabbits hide open. cutting the head out and toss it to the corner.

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—- 〔skill〕 – gained – (morph) —-

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i cut the belly with my hand finger claw thingy™ and picked up the rabbit and dumped its insides on the head and hide of the rabbit. i precede with freezing them so they don rot and stink.

i went back to the rabbit and started cutting out any part that seemed edible. legs, shoulders, etc. in the end i got left with butchered up rabbit ready for the taking.

”its rather well cut if i do say so myself which i do say so myself. especially considering this is my first time doing it. ” i said, with a small smile on my face while looking at my work.

lifting a thigh, i look at it and think to myself, do i want to eat this raw? not really.

its been a while since I last used this, last time it went… less than spectacular. i point my finger towards the thigh and concentrate, after a small bit of time, a small ember emerged, only be extinguished by me flinching back. nope. not worth it, i can just eat it raw.

taking the thigh to my mouth, i take a nice bite off of it, an then, only THEN do i get a bad feeling.

… deja vu?

!! i flinched back because it happend again, i got FUCKING poisoned again.

why is everything poisoned. just why.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (intuition) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (intuition) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (instinct) —-

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ohh, ** off. you only tell me this after i already been poisoned. useless skill.

”uhh. ” the poison finally wore off. since i ate only a bite, it didn take as long as last time for it to ware off.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison resistance) —-

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oh for **s sake. can you make the poison not, poison?

*gwoooooooooooo-*

i don want to, i really don want to take another bite but my stomach hungers for pain. why do i have a masochist for a stomach?

i drag my ass to the raw, very well cut (for an amateur) rabbit and take another bite.

ahhhggghhhh- i take another bite of pure suffering.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison resistance) —-

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this isnt lessening the pain at all, what do you do if not resistance poison?

i feel my whole body burning and getting destroyed. but its getting reconstructed as it gets destroyed. all thanks to this skill.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (regeneration) —-

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this will take too long. so let me tell you what i gained.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison resistance) —-

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison resistance) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison resistance) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison resistance) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison resistance) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison body) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison body) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison body) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison body) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison enzyme) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (poison enzyme) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (regeneration) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (regeneration) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (regeneration) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (regeneration) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up- (fatigue resistance) —-

—- 〔skill〕 – gained – (iron stomach) —

—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up- (iron stomach) —-

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ohh? i gained a new skill for eating the rabbit.

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〔skill〕 – (iron stomach) —>

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due to not being able to digest. your body has adapted to digesting normally non edible substances.

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my body still hurts from eating the rabbit though.

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—- 〔skill〕 – leveled up – (pain resistance) —-

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thanks?

anyways, heres my soul grimoire after all of this.

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「name」 – Jeneshisu

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「race」 – fox-kin

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〔stats〕

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「strength」 – 15 [weakend]

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「endurence 」 – 15 > 16 [weakened]

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「constitution」- 22 [weakened]

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「agility 」- 13

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「dexterity 」- 34

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「intelligence 」- 982

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「will」-

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〔skills〕

(adaptability) (Fox frost lv- 3) (intuition lv- 3 > 4) (instinct lv- 2 > 4) (acid resistance lv- 3) (poison resistance lv- 2 > 10) (pain resistance lv- 19 > 20) (cell regeneration lv- 8) (regeneration lv- 5 > 10) (poison enzyme lv- 2 > 4) (poison body lv- 2 > 6) (acid body lv- 2) (smell lv- 1 > 2) (hearing lv- 2) (mental map lv- 2 > 3) (echo location lv- 4) (fainting resistance lv- 6) (cold resistance lv- 7) (starvation resistance lv- 5) (fatigue resistance lv- 3 > 4) (dehydration resistance lv- 11) (morph lv- 1) (anima perception lv- 5) (anima vessel lv- 15) (assassination lv- 1) (predators instincts lv- 1) (stealth lv- 2) (iron stomach lv- 2)

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who~ i got alot of skills~ how may is that? its one two… twenty nine?

anyways, im no longer hungry, so that was taken care of.

i take a look outside and find night time had arrived. considering that when i entered my cave there was at least a few hours of sunlight left. i can conclude that eating that rabbit took way too long.

i walk back to comfortable spot in this cave and slump down. i may not be physically exhausted, but i sure am mentally.

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—- 〔skill〕 – gained – (mental fatigue resistance) —-

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that helped, only a little bit though. am i supposed leveled it up to one hundred so mental fatigue doesn bother me?

welp, sleep time.